i'll learn to love the fall

I remember the time when I was searching my mind just to find out if I’d ever define who I am could I ever afford To consider being bought? I was sure that I saw All the world but I keep wishing for more So I keep checking my direction Watching my own reflection Am I still still in connection  With the way I wanna be? Did I behave Cause i’ve been stuck here for days I’m in a daze Had a chance to be the saviour But I through it away

So what if I dive off the edge of my life And there’s nothing beneath? What if i live like there’s nothing to lose
Just to die on my knees? At least I’ll know I walked the dark I took the scars I risked it all And learned to love the fall

I could never say how it hurts To feel the worst I never make it even though I rehearse But I wont that be type of guy That never tried That never took a chance or took his Moment to fly, to be free You may be of the opinion That I’m making the wrong decision That I’m giving up the chance To live my life with your vision
But I can’t give up I won’t give up Until you see that OK is never ever enough

So what if I dive off the edge of my life And there’s nothing beneath? What if i live like there’s nothing to lose
Just to die on my knees? At least I’ll know I walked the dark I took the scars I risked it all And learned to love the fall

Own composition

Liar




Out on your own, feeling alone, cause unknown, threw you a bone to make you smile again.


but then you brought it back, and wanted more, so i kept playing and i kept saying, all the wrong things to say.


Hey, and now im in too far to back again, and if i told you now i'd break your heart, again, im so sorry but i just wanna be your friend, no more pretend


oh i'm a liar, i'm sorry but that's what i am, a liar and i will be till the end, A liar, i love your eyes and i love your smiles, wooa, damn im good at telling lies




and this was written such a long time ago that i've forgotten what else there was

breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even) You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

you belong with me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset She's going off about something that you said 'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like And she'll never know your story like I do But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You, you belong with me, you belong with meWalking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself Hey, isn't this easy? And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say you're fine, I know you better than that Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that? She wears high heels, I wear sneakers She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe You belong with me? You belong with me

Cold as You

You have a way of coming easily to me And when you take, you take the very best of me So I start a fight cause I need to feel something And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you. You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray. And I stood there loving you and wished them all away And you come away with a great little story. Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you (Died for YOU) Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day Every smile you fake is so condescending Counting all the scars you made. And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you...

fifteen :(

how true






You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors. It's the morning of your very first day And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while. Try and stay out of everybody's way. It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here For the next four years in this town, Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say "You know, I haven't seen you around before" 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you... You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out. Well, count to ten, take it in This is life before you know who you're gonna be. Fifteen, You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail And soon enough you're best friends. Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool. We'll be outta here as soon as we can And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car, And you're feeling like flying. And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends. When the night ends 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, You're gonna believe them When you're fifteen and your first kiss, Makes your head spin 'round But in your life you'll do things greater than Dating the boy on the football team. But I didn't know it at fifteen When all you wanted was to be wanted Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday... :( But I realized some bigger dreams of mine , And Abigail gave everything she had to a boyWho changed his mind and we both cried 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall I've found time can heal most anything And you just might find who you're supposed to be... I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen Your very first day Take a deep breath girl Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors... *breathe*

The way i loved you

He is sensible and so incredible And all my single friends would be so jealous. He says everything I need to hear and it's like I couldn't ask for anything better. He'd open up my door and I'd get into his car And he'd say, you look beautiful tonight. And I'd feel perfectly fine, But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain, And it's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name. Cause he's so in love that he acts insane... And that's the way I loved you. Breakin' down and comin' undone, It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much. And that's the way I loved you. He respects my space and never makes me wait, And he calls exactly when he says he will. He's close to my mother, Talks business with my father. He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable i guess But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain. And it's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name. He's so in love that he acts insane, And that's the way I loved you. Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush... And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you. He can't see the smile I'm fakin' And my heart's not breakin' 'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all, And you were wild and crazy Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated. Got away by some mistake and now I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain It's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name I'm so in love that I acted insane And that's the way I loved you Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you And that's the way I loved you I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you