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Liar




Out on your own, feeling alone, cause unknown, threw you a bone to make you smile again.


but then you brought it back, and wanted more, so i kept playing and i kept saying, all the wrong things to say.


Hey, and now im in too far to back again, and if i told you now i'd break your heart, again, im so sorry but i just wanna be your friend, no more pretend


oh i'm a liar, i'm sorry but that's what i am, a liar and i will be till the end, A liar, i love your eyes and i love your smiles, wooa, damn im good at telling lies




and this was written such a long time ago that i've forgotten what else there was

breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even) You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

you belong with me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset She's going off about something that you said 'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like And she'll never know your story like I do But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You, you belong with me, you belong with meWalking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself Hey, isn't this easy? And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say you're fine, I know you better than that Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that? She wears high heels, I wear sneakers She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe You belong with me? You belong with me

Cold as You

You have a way of coming easily to me And when you take, you take the very best of me So I start a fight cause I need to feel something And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you. You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray. And I stood there loving you and wished them all away And you come away with a great little story. Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you (Died for YOU) Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day Every smile you fake is so condescending Counting all the scars you made. And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through I've never been anywhere cold as you...

fifteen :(

how true






You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors. It's the morning of your very first day And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while. Try and stay out of everybody's way. It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here For the next four years in this town, Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say "You know, I haven't seen you around before" 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you... You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out. Well, count to ten, take it in This is life before you know who you're gonna be. Fifteen, You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail And soon enough you're best friends. Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool. We'll be outta here as soon as we can And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car, And you're feeling like flying. And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends. When the night ends 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, You're gonna believe them When you're fifteen and your first kiss, Makes your head spin 'round But in your life you'll do things greater than Dating the boy on the football team. But I didn't know it at fifteen When all you wanted was to be wanted Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday... :( But I realized some bigger dreams of mine , And Abigail gave everything she had to a boyWho changed his mind and we both cried 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall I've found time can heal most anything And you just might find who you're supposed to be... I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen Your very first day Take a deep breath girl Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors... *breathe*

The way i loved you

He is sensible and so incredible And all my single friends would be so jealous. He says everything I need to hear and it's like I couldn't ask for anything better. He'd open up my door and I'd get into his car And he'd say, you look beautiful tonight. And I'd feel perfectly fine, But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain, And it's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name. Cause he's so in love that he acts insane... And that's the way I loved you. Breakin' down and comin' undone, It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much. And that's the way I loved you. He respects my space and never makes me wait, And he calls exactly when he says he will. He's close to my mother, Talks business with my father. He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable i guess But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain. And it's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name. He's so in love that he acts insane, And that's the way I loved you. Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush... And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you. He can't see the smile I'm fakin' And my heart's not breakin' 'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all, And you were wild and crazy Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated. Got away by some mistake and now I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain It's 2 a.m. and I'm cursin' your name I'm so in love that I acted insane And that's the way I loved you Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you And that's the way I loved you I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you

forever and always

Once upon a time I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye We caught onto something, I hold on to the night You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me. Were you just kidding? cause it seems to me This thing is breaking down we almost never speak. I don’t feel welcome anymore, baby what happened please tell me? Cause one second it was perfect and now you’re half way out the door And I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called. And I feel so low you can’t feel nothin at all. And I flash back to when you said forever and always.. Ohh ohhh. And it rains in my bedroom everything is wrong. It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone, Cause I was there when you said forever and always. Was I out of line did I say something way too honest That made you run and hide like a scared little boy? I looked into your eyes; thought I knew you for a minute... now I’m not so sure So here’s to everything coming down to nothing... Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core Where is this going, thought I knew for a minute but I don’t anymore And I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called And I feel so low I can’t feel nothin at all... And I flash back to when he said forever and always Ohh ohhh And it rains in my bedroom everything is wrong It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone Cause I was there when you said forever and always. You didn’t mean it baby, I don’t think so... Ohhh ohhhh Oh back up, baby back up, did you forget everything? back up, baby back up, did you forget everything Cause it rains in my bedroom everything is wrong It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone Cause I was there when you said forever and always... ohhh I stare at the phone and he still hasn’t called And I feel so low I can’t feel nothin at all And I flash back to when we said forever and always And it rains in my bedroom everything is wrong It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone Cause I was there when you said forever and always You didn’t mean it baby, you said forever and always

does your mamma know

Stupid question of course she fucken does.




So you're blue but I can't Take a chance on a kid like you It's something I couldn't do, There's that look In your eyes I can read in your face That your feelings are driving you wild But boy you're only a child... Well, I could dance with you honey If you think it's funny But does your mother know that you're out?And I could chat with you baby Flirt a little maybe But does your mother know that you're out? Take it easy, Better slow down boy. That's no way to go im not the way to go. I can see, What you want But you seem pretty young To be searching for that kind of fun... So maybe I'm not the one no i'm not your one. Well, I could dance with you honey If you think it's funny Does your mother know that you're out? And I could chat with you baby Flirt a little maybe Does your mother know that you're out?




you're not hot, teasing me... just leave me alone for awhile you know you're only a child

god dammit

Boy we've had a real good time And i wish you the best On your way, eh eh
I didn't mean to hurt you I never thought we'd fall Out of place, eh eh
I have something that i love long long But my friends keepa' tellin' me That something's wrong Then i met someone. And eh, there's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say. Eh eh, eh eh I wish he never looked at me that way. Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh
Not that i don't care about you Just that things got so compliquae Eh eh
I met somebody cute and funny, Got each other and that's funny. Eh eh
I have something that i love long long. But my friends keepa' tellin' me That something's wrong gonna miss someone someone And eh, there's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh I wish he never looked at me that way Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh
I have something that i love long long But my friends keepa' tellin' me That something's wrong gonna miss someone And eh, there's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh I wish he never looked at me that way Eh eh, eh eh There's nothing else i can say Eh eh, eh eh




betray wat might have been

Can't get over

You... Don't want hear your name! Don't wanna see your smile! Cause Baby I'm still crying. And go, it's time for you to get out! I'm sick of standing my ground, Cause I just end up running. And I go to sleep believin‘ in tomorrow, But I wake up screaming, half wake through the night. You know I can't get over, And I don't know why? You know I can't get over, No matter how I try, And I don't know why? We... Will always be the same! You say it's time for a change, But I don't see one coming. So I cry now gone the darkness of your lovin, But I end up falling back into your arms! You know I can't get over, And I don't know why? You know I can't get over, No matter how I try, And I don't know why? From beginning to end, Once again right back to where we started. I know, I'm right We were wrong all along! You know I can't get over, And I don't know why? You know I can't get over, No matter how I try You know I can't get over, And I don't know why? You know I can't get over, No matter how I try, And I don't know why? You know I can't get over!

too much to ask for

It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely I wish someone could cure this pain It's funny when you think it's gonna work out 'Til ya chose weed over me, you're so lame I thought you were cool until the point Up until the point you didn't call me When you said you would I finally figured out you're all the same Always coming up with some kind of story Every time I try to make you smile You're always feelin sorry for yourself Every time I try to make you laugh,You can't You're too tough You think you're love less Is that too much that I'm askin for? I thought you'd come around when I ignored you So I thought you'd have the decency to change But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning 'Cause I'm not about, to look at your face again Can't you see that you're lying to yourself? You can't see the world through a mirror....It won't be too late when the smoke clears 'Cause I, I am still here But every time I try to make you smile You always go on feeling sorry for yourself Every time I try to make you laugh You’d stand like a stone Alone in your zone Is that too much that I'm askin for? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Can't find where I am Lying here Alone in fear Afraid of the dark no one to claim Alone again Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Can't you see that you're lying to yourself? You can't see the world through a mirror...It won't be too late when the smoke clears 'Cause I, I am still here But every time I try to make you smile You always go on feeling sorry for yourself Every time I try to make you laugh You can't You're too tough You think you're love less It was too much that I asked him for.

SONGS

ok so like the blog bellow this blog is now officially the music of my life blog :)

Shoot me down... bang bang.

Sometimes i get so wierd, i even freak myself out, i laugh myself to sleep it's my lullaby. Sometimes i drive so fast, just to feel the danger, I want to SCREAM it makes me feel alive. Is it enough to love? is it enough to breathe? Somebody ripped my heart out and left me there to bleed. Is it enough to die? somebody save my life, i'd rather be anything but ordinary please. You see i wake up in the morning, put on my face. the one that's gonna get me through another day. Doesn't really matter, how i feel inside... this life is like a game sometimes. i can say i love you in a million different languages, but until i can let you know it doesn't mean anything at all. Fall back, take a look at me and you'll see I'm for real, I feel what only I can feel. Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dreams... I'm tugging at my hair I'm pulling at my clothes I'm trying to keep my cool I know it shows I'm staring at my feet My cheeks are turning red I'm searching for the words inside my head 'Cause I'm feeling nervous Trying to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it...you're worth it...yeah. Guess I'm wishing my life away... With these things I'll never say. And I wanna believe you When you tell me that it'll be okay Yeah, I try to believe you...But I don't. When you say that it's gonna be It always turns out to be a different way I try to believe you Not today, I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow... tomorrow is a different day. Its always been up to you let's turn it around, its up to meI 'm gonna do what I have to do Just don't. Every time I try to make you smile You're always feelin sorry for yourself Every time I try to make you laugh, You can't You're too tough You think you're loveless Is that too much that I'm askin for? yeah i wanna believe you, but i can't

Azito

life is good i can't complain, i mean i could but no one's listening... but then i might as well if no one cares, complain to the emptyness around and accept that i am free to say what i need to.




so what could i complain about... people reading me and deciding what i mean instead of actually knowing what i mean. people thinking they understand, thinking i don't understand, being exactly hypocritical of themselves and what they say. yell at me for one thing, and do it themselves, write about how no one listens properly or no one does things they need, and then they never do those things they're talking about. hmm i could complain about girls, blowing things out of proportion as only teenagers can and getting into pointless tiffs that should have been avoided by simple maturity.




mostly i could complain about secrets, i hate secrets... people keeping things from me, drives me crazy, i don't know why.. i just need to know everything, i thirst for it. it's wierd and sad... but i'm a gossip and i know it. i snoop out the truth if it isn't given to me, and i often do things along the way to screw things up. People fussing, that annoys me... let's say i have a headache from a fall... i don't want fuss... lights shon in my eyes, u just wanted a pain killer. people fussing over me, over people that shouldn't have the fuss... i want to slap them for it, i have been raised... raised to be independant, to ignore pain... mental and physical, it makes me appear distant and harsh *shrugs* sorry i can't help that

The point is

You see the point is, i have a lot to say that i can't say infront of a lot of people, so i figured... new blog? why not. no one need know right. well here i can say what i want without the wrong people reading it, and taking it to heart. i like it, it's free and good :D how smart of me, oh the cleverness of me